How you classify things in your mind dramatically, amazingly and sometimes terribly alters things for you. This weekend I had a chance to deeply experience how different feelings come up when the name, the description, of a situation is changed in the mind.
Here’s how it went:
I was on a business trip and needed to send email. Someone offered to lend me their internet dongle, which I gladly accepted. I went on-line did my thing and then placed the dongle on the kitchen counter. But I think that the dongle dragon was on the prowl that day, because, the dongle simply vanished in the course of the house being tidied, and I wasn’t doing the tidying! Everyone searched high and low. The situation was a mystery. Then it became an issue. Tension prevailed, tightropes were suddenly up and we were all trapeze artists. What got me going was I was going to have to buy a dongle that I would never see or use or benefit from, one that already been thrown out! Ur hum, some of my money patterns were, shall I say, active? …
Lesson: Highly charged spaces, events that really press buttons are always Soul talk. I was very aware of how my body felt during the process, and how certain response patterns were screaming to play out. But I hung in by my nails. I kept allowed them place in my inner experience, but did not act them out.( In my workshops I call this the silent orgasm. You might want to shout or scream or moan, but because your mother in law is in the room next door, you won’t, can’t and don’t. The same applies for processing stuck feelings They are personal to you, and for your own to experience and release.)
As is the way with Spirit, the shift arrives in unexpected ways. Whereas I was planning to meditate to help myself through these difficulties, a more and surprisingly elegant solution flowed in on its own – as I sat down to update my income and expenses I spontaneously renamed the dongle ‘debt’ – from ‘’buy a dongle [I will never hold or use dammit!]’’ to ‘’dongle usage’’ . Something magical happened. My feelings of being extorted turned to inner laughter. My mind replayed the loan, saw me needing to do internet that day, so much so, that I would be totally willing to pay R600 for a 30 minute session. Ha!
I still have a residue of stuckness in my gut. Probably very much part of a larger pattern of feeling forced to pay – and I will take to my meditation. But my relationship with this experience is in another category now. And that’s wonderful.
Naming it is framing it. And framing it creates a container which will allow – or disallow – energies to flow. Flow gives life to your body, wings to your dreams and infuses your heart with Love – love with a big L.
PS. This blog will be uploaded with the new dongle I intend to buy for myself today!
(Within 24 hours I had been offered a dongle at a quarter of the usual cost…)